Up Until Now..

Things have been quite different lately..People have their particular preferences already, some are good, some are bad. But whatever it is I don't really care, people can do what they want, anything that needs to be said about them I keep it to myself. Nobody likes to listen to someone else nags, let alone listen to me..... Its kinda painful that sometimes nobody realizes that ones trying to help, and instead would be seen as a joke or an insult. But...such is life :), I cant really help everything that is going on around me, only can do whats in my reach. For all the things that happen around me, I guess the one thing that really matters is to just love and care the people around you :). No matter how bad they are, or how much they go against your wishes, I think love and care should be kept in place :).

On another note, will be flying off to Miri today =D. Gonna be there for about a week chilling with Jack before he leaves for UK and also well....just make a trip down to Sarawak cause I have not set foot there before lawlll. To make things absolutely more awesome, after Miri I will be heading down to Singapore for Singfest `08! XD.



Lostprophets and Travis baby, can't get any better than that XD! And no, some of you, don't hate me *points at someone* =D.

Anyways, gotta do some stuff first before I leave the house for Sentral, and if anything else, yes I will blog lolz, I know its been pretty dead =.=.

Anyways, laterz folks.

I dont believe in being one place at one time

I don't believe in being grounded,
I don't believe in being stalled,
I believe in the limitless amount of space we have been offered,
I believe there is more than one way out from here...

Please show me a sign,
give me strength to move,
give me hope to live,
give me a purpose,
Show me a sign.....

The Best I Can Be

This is me,
Trying really really hard to be,
But the more I try to be,
The harder it is to see,
But I don't care how everyone else sees me,
Cause this is already the best I can be! =D

Yea..I know, another kiddy Dr.Seuss type of poem again...haha. But yea, the tone and words set into this poem really reflects about what I think of some people who put too much expectation on someone, or just want people to be the way they "should" be...In fact, not everyone can be perfect, but they can always be the best that they can be! =D

Woo Hoo!

Of past and present

Of Past and present, of truth and lie, and, of love and life. Thats what been going through my head these past few days....Love cant be any better for me now :). Its great, at least this time I know which direction I am headed to lol. Of life, cant be any better...Great having the friends that I have, great having the path I have chose, and lovely how everyone has been to me :), cant get any better than this, I love it! haha yea i know...lil bit too much =.= lol.
Of truth and lie, I guess i know where I stand now...and what brings me down. Setting it up was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Knowing where your boundary stands =.=....Thats actually tough work haha.
And of past and present, think I am better of now than I used to be few years ago.....hahaha. Sad to say but, yea O.o. Looking back....think I have made alot of progress....Ever since that time when I kept telling myself to change and not just sit around idling...till now where I have actually changed lol.
All in all, it really feels great..Being able to move one, and finally achieve my goal..Its been a great three years to be exact, haha.
What was the goal? Well, I will leave it to u guys to find out hahaha. Its not really that hard to notice =.=...Specially with having so many friends from psychology...yea, it wont be too soon =.= hahaha.

P.S.
I know that this post seem a lil bit prompt, sudden and awkward but, what ever I have said here, I have never really discussed it with anyone +.+. Let alone...to my close friends hahaha. So yea, it is kinda abrupt and sudden, but seems fitting for me to kinda blog about it since I have been dealing with it for a surmountable amount of time O.o. But yea it is awkward lol.

Good comment, bad comment, just write what ever. I dont care :P lol

Idle

Growing up, I heard a lady made a good point about life. Whether or not shes just being real or pessimistic, I think thats really up to people to judge. She was already in her 80's. One thing that sets her apart was that she was more alert and active than people that were in her age group. She rarely had any ailments and any problems living on her own. Which comes to the subject that people always asked her and what I want to point out.
The lady was already in her 80's and the only other question that she always get other than about her health, was why? Why did she want to live alone and how was she so comfortable with it? I did not really remember her complete answer, but one part of her response about being alone that really struck me and went deeply into my head was that she said we are all gonna be alone at some point in our lives, must as well get on with it.....
Well...always being pushed away and pushed around when I was a kid, this sort of point really hit me. I always imagined myself being alone, I guess its due to all the stuff that happened when I was a kid. But one thing thats good though, slowly but surely, its dissipating away :). I have come too far for me to just slump down to that point again...its hard to keep myself up but, when push comes to shove and when you see the bigger and clearer picture. Its really worth every single effort and time to keep oneself positive and optimistic..Its how we do :)

My Anxieties..

Up until this point, I have always been plagued by anxieties due to my mostly pessimistic and worrisome nature =.= *Slaps Self*.

The slightest bit of trouble I go crazy-go-psycho-maniac-that-talks-like-chewbacca in my noggin(ARGHHHHHHH!!! *swings mentally projected dagger*). Which leads to my ber emo-emo tendencies which reached quite a low point some where last year =.=

BUT! (Why yes theres more!) up until recently.....I managed to pull myself together and I can't say that it feels really good and that every single moment seems more meaningful now....Up until recently (and I really mean it) I did not genuinely felt this sort of feeling before....Its great, I am really enjoying it. Hahaha *Pinches self*

So whenever things take turn for the worse, just don't worry about it, things will definitely get better, It always does...just gotta let it go, move on, and be happy :D. Oh yea and stay calm.....Looooooool

Life demands it! >.< haha

Nitezzzz

My 5 Rules

I live by fiiiiiiive rules. They are:

1.Stay Calm

and

2.Stay Calm

and

3.Stay Calm

and....

4.Stay Calm

then

5.Think!

And With that said, Whenever anyone asks me what I am doing. I would reply "Staying calm."....Lame huh? haha.

"Lameness precedes laughter, Calmness precedes action."

Gotta go sleep now, Class at 9 am. Nitezzz